I can't believe my Baby is having a Baby.......and she's doing it in style.

My daughter, Lucie, is expecting her first child later this year. I have to be honest- I cried when she first told me. Not happy tears, but sad tears because I just turned 40 and I was NOT ready to be a Grandmother. Yes, sadly I admit, I made it all about me. <insert eye roll>-

After letting that thought set in - about 24 hours later, I was filled with this repeating thought- 'My Baby is having a Baby.... My Baby is having a Baby.'

A week later after Lucie send me a picture of her first sonogram picture- I was madly in love. I found myself strolling through the baby section in stores. Constantly fighting to urge to purchase just about everything that I saw. I didn't know I could love someone so much- with sight unseen.

The Love I feel for Lucie's child is a different Love I felt for my children when I was expecting them. This Love, comes from a deeper soulful place in my heart. I never knew that kind of Love existed.

Someone told me recently- Grandchildren are your rewards for not eating your own children. LOL!
Parent with toddlers and teenager know how tempting eating ones young becomes when they drive you BATSHIT crazy!

I will admit, I was a little worried about Lucie having a child so young. She is 20. I had her at 19 and I know how difficult it is- I remember what a struggle my 20's were. I had two kids back to back. My 20's were a blur. However, those worries soon left me. I remember when we brought my second child, my oldest Son, home. Lucie was 16 months old and in diapers. Lucie quickly realized she was no longer the baby when she recognized her brother was also wearing diapers. She pointed at him and said- "Baby!" and then pointed at herself and said "No Baby!" She promptly took off her diaper and climbed on top of the toilet and squatted to pee.

Lucie's was born to be a mother. When she was growing up- she was the "Boss" amongst her  younger brothers when I wasn't home. I sometimes had to remind her- " I am the mother here."
Without a doubt, I know what a wonderful mother is going to be. She has had plenty of training.

I can't believe my Baby is having a Baby...... and she's doing it in style.