YOU are a BADASS!

I feel as if I am in a transitional period in my life. I am 38 years old and I still do not know what I want to do when I grow up. When does a person know when they have officially grown up? I have no clue.

Looking back it seems I have been wondering aimlessly my entire life with no real career goals. I have always heard people say, “Do what you love, and it will never feel like work”.

So, I asked myself… what do I love? What are my passions in life? Do I actually have any passions? I mean, I have things that I enjoy doing, but am I really passionate about them? Oh shit, I have no passions!! What does THAT mean? I am screwed!

First, I looked up the definition of Passion. This is what Google says:

1.    noun

Noun: passion; plural noun: passions; noun: Passion; noun: the Passion

1.    1.

Strong and barely controllable emotion.

"A man of impetuous passion"

§  A state or outburst of strong emotion.

Second, I made a list of things I really enjoy, however I would not consider passionate.

·         Reading – Honestly, I do not have time to read so I am in love with Audio books.

·         Cooking – I do not suck, I am pretty darn good. THANKYOUVERYMUCH!

·         Writing- This is a fairly new hobby and something I want to explore further.

·         My doggie- Ok, honestly I am slightly obsessed with them.

·         People- I am a social person.

So what does a reading, foodie, aspiring writer, dog-loving people person do for a living? I am in Logistics and Transportation and I am attempting to dabble in Real Estate, which is turning out to be an epic fail. In addition, I find my day job to be soul sucking. I am chained to a desk 8-10 hours a day and made to do things for money.

Queue in the self-loathing. Self-deprecation is something I have totally mastered in my life. Is this why I am having a hard time identifying my passions?

Yesterday, I started listing to Jen Sencero’s book “YOU are a BADASS- how to stop doubting YOUR GREATNESS and start living an AWESOME LIFE”

Yes, I know... it is a self-help book, but who doesn’t need a little self-help from time to time. I have to say I am feeling a little inspired. For a while, I have been feeling nothing. Just not trying to rock the boat, going with the flow. I am tired of that. I want to be in control of my own schedule and life and not by someone else... I.E Boss.

In the meantime, I have decided to take the advice of Jen and her book and I am going to start meditations and yoga and saying affirmations. This is supposed to clear all of the junk in my head and maybe, just maybe I’ll discover what it is that I am passionate about.

My first affirmation : YOU are a BADASS!!!